She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart, he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until' the night

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said, "I'll love her till I die"
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The Angels sang a whiskey lullaby

The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years, she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until' the night

She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the Angels sang a whiskey lullaby

So i was at Cluny today mm, business was pretty quiet due to the dismal weather :l  the fridge cleared by fivish so i got pretty bored til Ru and Clarence came down with their smexy kamelas hahaha, headed to Adam's road for maggi goreng and Ahpit's teh-bing which was the sex yummmmyyy ;D
My knee is hurting still, ima seeing the specialist with mumsy tmrw i hope my bones are fine if not i can just grow fat and die in a wheelchair hahaha, okay okay ima exaggerating. And i've got no shifts til Saturday, i haven't exactly decided if that'd be a good or bad thing yet though mmm. Okay, university life is starting way sooner than i expected, and there's a thought nagging at the back of my mind to tell me to retake the BTT which i failed once (no, i swear, i was careless, i do have common sense, rly). If only i could drive instantly and avoid going through the nitty gritty things of taking so many tests and whatnotz eugh. Daddy is preparing an old skool beetle for me i wna hit the roads pronto fwahh. AND AND, university means a new wardrobe, which is equivalent to causing my bank account to be squeezed dry oh gosh.
SULK. : <
And omg, i have pet chickens HAHA, well Judah chased the cock away two days ago, but phew, it finally came back today, chicks anyone? HAHA.

Because the air outside will make our cells
Divide at an alarming rate until our shells
Simply cannot hold all our insides in,
And that's when we'll explode

So i realised i have been eating massively these few days compared to the week before,
yes yes, i knw i should be eating more since my church mates have been telling me i look yellow (eugh, i don't wna look yellow)
But it's alarming how imma gobbling so much food lately, no i am not anorexic nor bulimic please thank you.
Met up with terrence after like how long hahah (terrence, how long? HAHA). Dim sum was more or less satisfying, & ooh, my green tea frap tasted absolutely divine today, just the way i wanted it joy oh joy.
Tall green tea frap, six scoops of green tea powder, no classic syrup, no whip ftw ^ ^
Evan & i were awesome company for terrence, we took the ultimate glamorously smexy photos of him, his mop head hair & small eyes hee hee mm, i know you love us hahaha.
oh & right, few things that left me grinning from ear to ear, i passed my interview & NTU wants me hahaha, my paycheck came OH BOY OH BOY!
AND WHAT THE HECK,MY LEFT KNEE IS ACHING TERRIBLY,I THINK I HAVE RHEUMATISM I AM OLD FWAHHHHH

On another note, my mind has been a mish mash of thoughts & i haven't been the happiest lately. Decisions has to be made, but it all comes in a package along with consequences that miserably, i do not possess the courage to face up to.
It's not fair that life is always unfair, and when you always get stuck in a rut & end up being a bitch. /:
I am detesting army every second of my life, but on the contrary, at times, or rather quite often, i am starting to love it bit by bit.
& sometimes i guess, when you get an inch, you would want a feet, & then, you want everything you could possibly have. But of course, at a price, a hefty one indeed.
Dubious, how life is no?

There's an answer in the sound of a train
there is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There's a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
there's a beauty in walking away.

Spontaneity. I like.
So these two days have been rly spontaneous haha, our planned sentosa trip evolved into
a road trip in liz's ride, with huifang & elaine becoming proud mamas of four rly adorable hamsters :D
I WNA CHINCHILLA! : D hee hee, we need another road trip rarr.
Mm, i was at NTU for an interview today, pretty okay i guess, and there were familiar faces too haha, & i headed for a swim at val's. Whooboyz, i need my pay, i need my pay, i need my pay.
Okay, what i need is just moolah gimme gimme. Mother's day is coming, & i wna buy new thingzzzz, okay my hands are rly itchy hahaha.

Mm, i reckon i need more spontaneous days like these haha.

So ima free from work this week whoo i spent my morning rolling around in bed, the weather was perfect,
don't you love the sound of raindrops pitter pattering against your window snuggled in the warmth of your comforter and many pillows in your bed & the best thing, you don't needa wake up for school or work. (ima sorry those who got school hee hee)
I finally dragged myself out of bed for a proper lunch in idk how long, it's pretty odd to be eating proper meals given i usually end up eating a sandwich, apple & sushi the whole of last week when i was at work hahaha.
AND I GOT MY GREEN TEA FRAP ALREADY YESSSS HAHAHA.
btw, i reckon ima bit psychotic these few days haha, pretty damn odd too.

It's been a week & ima still hoping i'd bump into my dream boy again.
OH BOY I LOVE BRITS ^ ^

So imma down with the scratchy throat once more ughhh i detest, absolutely detest getting sick.
Your movements/reactions lags & i feel hot inside >:/
Imma down with five shifts this week, two at republic plaza, one at vivo, & two at sembawang hill, i
nearly wanted to do a sixth shift but i figured i'd crash by friday hahaha so oh well i'll pass.
Work has been pretty fun since i've got shifts with cj girls awesome pawsome ;D tiringzzzzz though.
Side track, I WNA PARTYYYYY!
HAHA.
Mm, met buddyzz clarence for lunch today, bumped into jane and aaron so we munched on mexican hahah,
okay though i just drank sopa, soupzzz i mean hahaha.
& haha i think imma done with my withdrawal symptoms of Alex, i figured i just missed the feeling of getting
pampered heh.
& hello hello i wna party party partyyyy, imma itching hahaha.

FWAH.

A's results was. (honestly indescribable.)
I realised my results ain't that bad as it looks, moreover i'd think it a miracle since
i haven't exactly made it past a D before my whole entire life in JC, & i even came close
to retaining in J1.
No i didn't fail haha.
More of failing my own expectations.
Literature was a pleasant surprise & yes t12 we cool, top class for Lit.
But. (Yes there is always the but.)
I spent like the whole entire day weeping my eyes out, thus contributing to my nose which is
leaking like a broken tap to my parents' surprise cos they are more or less happy with it.
Expectations, & disappointments, & many questions for God. The expectations i had for myself
definitely contributed to the difficulty of accepting my results.
My parents have been awesome, v v supportive & i really love them.
For now, i've decided to apply for both local & overseas universities, & i'll see how i'd take it
from there.
Omgggg, the nose is annoying the shizz out of me. >:/

& regardless, i still thank God.
I guess there really is a plan for me in God's hands.
& imma really proud of those who did rly well, ya'll koolkatzzz. :D

I saw Sammo for two whole days haha, job hunting from Eunos, to Joo Chiat,
heading down Haji Lane & getting nice heels for just five.
& YES, IT DIDN'T RAIN ON ME TODAY!! :D
Imma getting the shivers thinking about A Level results & i reckon everyone is getting the jitters too
and it doesn't really help much when imma practically clueless on what i wna do, take or be in the
future. >:/ grumble. Fwah. GAH.

& whooo imma addicted to Lily Allen's new album. Catchy tunes & interesting lyrics, coolios no?
Awfully chocolate here i come yaye. :D
Moolah finally rollin' in HEH HEH HEH.

XOXO

</div>So clarence booked out yesterday & we homiezx headed for some
lepak sessionzz booze & all. I swear the freaking weather is against me >:/
it's been raining on me for three days consecutively plus it only pours heavily
when i have no brolly nor shelter eeyrrrr.
I want the sun, my glorious sun, where are you?!
Today was pretty slack hahaha met up with clarence & honky for Thomson
prata before renting thrillers to chill at home with them two.

XOXO

Fwahhhh, our nice sunny plans got ruined by the rain ack, with seven silly fellas walking under the rain
to Siloso HAHA. Oh well, quite an experience i must say.
Imma convinced that imma jinxed, the sun never comes out whenever i wna tan/swim ugh.
& as usual, we got tickled silly by Ryan's retarded antics. He freaking took a major disgusting photo
of a lady's armpit gawh.

Mm, daddy left for Dubai just. He just came back from London & he's off again eeyr.
Photobucket is not allowing me to load pictures dang. Recently i have been getting nightmares about
A Level results, & worst thing, haha, i can't even figure out what my grades were, it was blurry.
I reckon i needa start deciding what courses i wna take & the grades required before it's too late man,
i hate making decisions...
Rarr.
/mumble mumble grumble grumble.

It's been an ultimate boring week so far apart from heading back to school for vball,
re-packing my always messy room(i swear imma doing this for the umpteen time already),
online shopping & more online shopping gawh, i think imma freaking addicted, my account is
depleting at an atrocious rate fwahh & the best thing, i am not working( yes i know, applaud)
HAHAHA, SHOOT ME PLEASE.
Unfortunately & yet again, i falter leaving myself in a wreck,
getting your heartstrings pulled at is not funny one bit.

& on a lighter note, sentosa & sun muah muah here i come!
Excitingzxxz cos the J2 vballers never fail to tickle me silly hahaha.
:D

You spin my head right round, right round.
Thank you v much.

I HAVE BEEN STUCK AT HOME FOR FOUR FREAKIN' DAYS I WNA CRY.
SWALLOWING KILLS ME COS OF THEM ULCERS & RED SPOTS DOWN MY THROAT.
SWALLOWING WATER IS ALREADY TAKING A TOLL ON ME.
FIRST ROUND OF ANTIBIOTICS APPARENTLY ISN'T WORKING ON ME WOW &
I'VE GOT ANOTHER STRONGER ONE TO TAKE.
NEVER THOUGHT I'D SAY THIS BUT I'M TIRED OF SLEEPING & ONLINE SHOPPING.

SAVE ME PLEASE?

omg, i am still so full from the scrumptious, awesome shizz buffet lunch at Marriot courtesy of
 my best budzxzx.
you two never fail to make every year special i love you xoxo
& thank you all for the birthday wishes!
: D
& dearest hon chyte, if you ever get to read this, you made today special too
xoxo
aight, i just had my oh so delicious lana cake & imma waiting for mister
alex leong to whisk me away to the dinner he planned.

photos will definitely be up soonzxz rarrr
much love <3
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( love much? )  

muah muah love ya'll
peace out VV